Thank you for writing this. I feel so far behind in life - I am 30, I just switched careers, moved to a new city, and I’m single AF. I look at friends and family and wonder where I “went wrong” - why my life looks so different from theirs. I remind myself constantly that I have a good life that I’ve worked so hard to build - good friends, meaningful hobbies, work I enjoy. But it’s hard to shut out the nagging voice in my head that reminds me that my eggs are dying. Wishing you strength to endure long days of discomfort 💛
You absolutely are not alone in this. I've been feeling very similarly. Like I'm failing in some ways, and exceeding in others. Always wanting more, but also grateful for what I have. I cope by keeping a schedule that makes me feel afloat. Exercise, journaling. I even started pulling tarot. Trying new things, getting out of the house. My husband and I went rock climbing last weekend, we're going bowling this weekend. Watching shows I normally would click past (and loving them). Anything I can do to get out of my head, I do that. But I also make sure I'm letting myself feel what I feel and reflect. Hope this helps!
I 100% feel this, though, I'm not even at your level of success (which, by the way, is most definitely success!). In the midst of the pandemic, I quit my toxic job, my dad's mental health deteriorated, and my parents divorced. I'm now coming out on the other side. When some days are harder than others, I say "you have to rescue yourself" i.e. owning what you can control, because so many of the events of the past year or two have been out of my hands. For me, that means going for a bike ride, cooking my favorite foods, walking my dog. We're all trying our best. Sometimes our best is minimal effort and that's ok! You're definitely not alone in this "in between" place. And thank you for making me feel a little less alone. 💙
Thank you for writing this. I feel so far behind in life - I am 30, I just switched careers, moved to a new city, and I’m single AF. I look at friends and family and wonder where I “went wrong” - why my life looks so different from theirs. I remind myself constantly that I have a good life that I’ve worked so hard to build - good friends, meaningful hobbies, work I enjoy. But it’s hard to shut out the nagging voice in my head that reminds me that my eggs are dying. Wishing you strength to endure long days of discomfort 💛
You absolutely are not alone in this. I've been feeling very similarly. Like I'm failing in some ways, and exceeding in others. Always wanting more, but also grateful for what I have. I cope by keeping a schedule that makes me feel afloat. Exercise, journaling. I even started pulling tarot. Trying new things, getting out of the house. My husband and I went rock climbing last weekend, we're going bowling this weekend. Watching shows I normally would click past (and loving them). Anything I can do to get out of my head, I do that. But I also make sure I'm letting myself feel what I feel and reflect. Hope this helps!
I 100% feel this, though, I'm not even at your level of success (which, by the way, is most definitely success!). In the midst of the pandemic, I quit my toxic job, my dad's mental health deteriorated, and my parents divorced. I'm now coming out on the other side. When some days are harder than others, I say "you have to rescue yourself" i.e. owning what you can control, because so many of the events of the past year or two have been out of my hands. For me, that means going for a bike ride, cooking my favorite foods, walking my dog. We're all trying our best. Sometimes our best is minimal effort and that's ok! You're definitely not alone in this "in between" place. And thank you for making me feel a little less alone. 💙